{A long time? There is only one possibility as to what Chal could mean by that and that makes him realize he has not been considering the Swordian's feelings. Only it is something too difficult to change about himself. There has always been some kind of distance. He never sought to physically bond with anyone, someone else always persisted.
He recalls Stahn's own persistence which led to him acknowledging him and holding his hand but Chal is different. Maybe this contact cemented it. Before Chal's form did not allow the thought but this person has always looked after him. Always at his side. Perhaps he wishes changed long ago but there is a realization that being here with Chal is the closest he has ever gotten to fulfilling it.
He brings a hand up to his face before he settles down once more.]
...that could have been worst.
[He turns on his side closing his eyes. There is some weariness in his voice as the whole experience has left him a little drained.]
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He recalls Stahn's own persistence which led to him acknowledging him and holding his hand but Chal is different. Maybe this contact cemented it. Before Chal's form did not allow the thought but this person has always looked after him. Always at his side. Perhaps he wishes changed long ago but there is a realization that being here with Chal is the closest he has ever gotten to fulfilling it.
He brings a hand up to his face before he settles down once more.]
...that could have been worst.
[He turns on his side closing his eyes. There is some weariness in his voice as the whole experience has left him a little drained.]